When I started this Journey going for a walk was a hardship, something I knew I had to do but something that was difficult to do and tiring and frustrating.
Today I went for a walk. My last for a while, until the knee is healed from the surgery. Today was wonderful and frustrating. I enjoyed the walk, about 7 miles in the woods of the Rockefeller Preserve, but was also frustrated by the knowledge that it would be my last walk for a bit, maybe a month, maybe more. I am not sure what to expect really. I do know that certain motions will not be advisable at first and that I will need physical therapy.
The weather during the walk was magnificent. Bright blue sky, warm sunshine, a crispness in the air. Couples, young and old, walking along and holding hands. Dogs gamboling about, squirrels and chipmunks darting around, snakes slithering along the trail… Yeeeshh. Hate snakes.
The knee is aching. At least I burned off the breakfast at the Carnegie Deli. Scrambled eggs with lox and onion, a bialy, some home fries…. 1000 calories. OH MY. No lunch, just an apple. A dinner of TVP tacos and no evening snack to keep me in line with the plan.
Loved the breakfast but it sat in me like a lead weight. I just don’t eat like that anymore….
As I was walking along I couldn’t help but think about the first time I hiked there about a year ago. I was exhausted after a three-mile walk. I questioned my sanity for even thinking about doing it. I was fat and out of shape and I was struggling up hills that now I don’t even realize I have walked.
I did seven miles today and could have done twenty if the knee had been willing and the storm clouds had not rolled in. This is what it is all about, you know. It is about being able to have a life. It is about being able to enjoy a walk in the woods on a comfortable fall day. It is about being able to walk, run, hike, bike, live, work and play and not feel exhausted all the time. It is about being able to have a life of activity and involvement. It is about not sitting at the side lines (too tired to stand) and watching the rest of the world go by. Living. That is what the Journey is about.
Why did I lose the weight? Because I wanted to be a part of the world. I wanted LIFE, I wanted to experience LIFE. I wanted to talk about, write about, my adventures. I wanted to be involved again.
I have learned that it will not be given to you. No magic, no wishes, no lottery winning, is going to make it happen. I had to get involved in my life. I had to find my way to the destination. I have found it. I continue to find it, to explore, to discover. I am in control and I am running MY show.
Eat less. Eat Right. Move More. This is what it is about.