The surgery went well, as expected, and I am now relaxing at home. There is some post-op pain, to be expected and I am following the instructions to the very letter to ease the discomfort and speed the healing.
I am excited that this is now behind me and I can start on the rehabilitation and get back to my full range of activities.
I will find out more about what is ahead tomorrow when I see the doctor and he examines the knee.
All in all I am very optimistic that I can be back on the bike and back to hiking soon.
Realization 1: I am in a Good Place
I can’t sit for long with my knee bent as it starts to ache so I will keep this post short.
I have come to the realization that I am in a good place in life right now. I am starting my new job in 12 days and I am past the surgery. I am feeling great, I love the changes in my body and my mind. The way I eat is nearly a habit now and I am finding maintaining the weight at 200 pounds is going well and not nearly the struggle I anticipated. I am ready now to start the push towards 195. Getting back on my feet and walking more and then hiking and riding will help with this.
I am looking forward to climbing the Delaware Water Gap again. I haven’t done it in 25 years and I have set this as a challenge for the late Autumn if the knee is ready. PGB: what do ya think?
Realization 2: It was MY Fault
So I was reading back to my blog posts around the time I hurt the knee and I came to realise that the knee injury was caused by my own neglect. In the two to three weeks before the injury I wrote at least three times about problems with the chain jumping and I didn’t take the time to get it properly diagnosed and repaired. If I had….
Lesson learned (I hope)….
So many times we look back and see that things would have been different if we had only….
With this in mind I am revisiting buying a bike (again). I know, I know….
Realization 3: This has been Everything I hoped it Would be
The Journey has been everything I hoped it would be. I have lost the weight, learned about myself, found greater focus in life, pulled together the courage to significantly change the direction I am traveling and, I think, have become along the way a better Me.
If I look at the maximum weight I carried, 318 pounds in 2008 as weighed at the Doctors office, I have lost nearly 120 pounds. That is a change that cannot not be overstated….
I have learned a new way to approach food. I have learned to eat better, eat less, eat “right”.
I have calmed down. I am far less prone to irritation than I was. I have found a more controlled and comfortable me deep inside. I go with the flow more than I did. I accept that people and situations will not always agree with me and I can accept it.
I still get the dark moods. The Black Dog still visits but I think the visits are shorter now. I also suffer less insomnia than in the past. Insomnia has been a problem for me since childhood. I rarely have a problem with it now.
I was miserable in my job. I made the decision to not suffer through it and I worked to find the right situation for me and for my family and I had the belief in myself to get it and to make a big change in our lives.
Good things are happening for me and they are happening because I started this Journey and I have taken to heart the lessons learned.
Off to rest the knee.