There comes a point every time I am on the elliptical, the stationary bike or the treadmill (as rarely as I use the treadmill) when I just want to stop. It might be 5, 10, 15 minutes in and I just want to stop. I become convinced that I am pushing myself too far, too hard, too fast, or I just feel tired and I want to stop. It happens every time. If I set the timer for 25 minutes or half an hour it still happens. The thought that I just can’t make it the full-time starts to take over my mind. Then I make the decision to push on. I force myself past that point and it becomes easy again. The last 10 or 15 minutes become easy. Then it starts again when I move over to the next piece of equipment. Again I push past it and succeed.
When I say that I couldn’t do 25 or 30 minutes on the exercise equipment a year ago I am talking about the mental aspect as well as the physical. I certainly was not in shape to do the 25 minutes or half an hour but I also was not mentally able to push myself even to ten minutes. I would hit the point and I would quit.
I don’t quit now.
I did my half an hour on the elliptical today. I only was able to get 15 minutes on the stationary bike. The legs simply gave out. Up since 3:30 this morning, on my feet much of the day in the factory and I simply ran out of steam. I had to think long and hard about it afterwards. Did I give in? Did I hit the wall and give up? I don’t believe I did. I think I took it as far as my body could go today.
Back at it tomorrow.