Goodbye Boss, I hardly got to know ya…
I started here in later October and my boss gave notice two weeks ago. He left yesterday. He was here quite a long time and he was very popular with the employees of the plant. The staff held a party for him yesterday, much wonderful food from the kitchens of the staff. I had some smoked trout and some shrimp, a little portion of macaroni and cheese and a small, small, small, portion of a chicken enchilada dish. I also had some strawberries and some pineapple. I passed on everything else. And believe me it wasn’t easy. Sausage and peppers, meatballs, baked beans, cheese platters, chips and dips…. The panoply of the foods I love and won’t eat… When it was all said and done I had 750 calories or so at lunch. I passed the test.
I go in to work around 5:45 each morning; I work until 4:30 or 5:00. I then get a light dinner and go to the fitness center to workout. This routine is followed 3-4 nights out of 5 and it works for me most nights. Last night was not one of those nights.
I needed to rest last night. For whatever reason, I was not feeling well and I went to sleep at about 9:00 last night. I awoke this morning feeling much better and I can only think it was my body warning me that rest was needed. I really try to listen to what my body is telling me. When I feel the way I did last night I know it is time to relax with a good book and go to sleep early. I wasn’t always smart enough to do that.
Studies show that people who get 8 hours sleep per night weigh less than people who sleep less than 8. The thought is that the body needs the energy that sleep stores and so without it the hunger response kicks in. I need to get more sleep.
Here is Why…
Seeing me eat lightly at the party yesterday a skinny as a whip coworker prodded me to enjoy more food, like the meatballs and the sausage. I politely declined. Several times. Then I took out my cell phone and showed him the BEFORE picture. “This is why” I said to him. Then he understood.
I thought about it and I realized that I was prone to the same behavior when I was heavy. I would prod people to eat more, especially the skinny ones. I realize now that I have no idea why people eat the way they do. I am lean now and I stay that way by never allowing myself to stray from the path. Other may be traveling a similar path and I may have made it more difficult for them.
Something to think about before I prod people to eat a little more or try something else….
The fellow I showed the picture to raved about the weight loss, how great I looked, the great job I did losing the weight. I am still uncomfortable with that. Yes I lost the weight. Yes I worked diligently at it. But…
The fact remains that I had the weight to lose. I should not have ever had to lose the amount of weight I have lost. Twenty or thirty pounds perhaps. Not One-Hundred and Six. Simply put, it should never have gotten to that point. So as I have said in this blog before, while I enjoy the compliments on how I look and the accomplishment, I still have to wrap my head around my utter failure to control my weight in the first place.
I don’t know what to think about this. Is this something I can transition through, the feeling that while I have succeeded in taking the weight off this is still a retrenching from a failure to take proper care of myself? This is a complex issue for me. I have extricated myself from a trap I put myself in. I am not sure that congratulations are in order.
On the other hand many people never do pull themselves out and so perhaps that is the real meaning of the congratulations. I recognized the problem and I found a means to do something about it. Late in the game? Yes. Nonetheless, I did something about it. I need to think on this more. I have yet to find a graceful way to accept the plaudits. Need to work on that as well.