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Letting the Black Dog Win.

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Today has just not been a good day for me. It is beautiful outside, the world seems OK for a change and there is really no reason for this but today the Black Dog is winning.

For those who are new to this blog the Black Dog is my term for the depression that sometimes washes over me.black-dog

I have been interviewing for a job and I think it is going well but the interview process has been very long and there is still no resolution. I don’t know at this point if I have a good shot at it or not. The things the hiring manager said in closing today left me wondering if it was the start of letting me down easy…

So now the Black Dog is winning. Today anyway.

This is when it is hardest for me to resist food. The comfort of food. Home alone right now, sitting here trying to wrestle the situations around in my head. Food calls.

I resist. It is hard. There is good food in the house, healthy foods but even healthy foods are not so good when eaten to excess and right now as I sit typing this I want to raid the kitchen and eat everything in sight.

This will pass. I think I can weather this storm.

Today I am letting the Black Dog win.

Tomorrow I will stick him in the kennel and try to move along without him for a while.

Peace

4 thoughts on “Letting the Black Dog Win.

  1. So sorry to hear about your long journey, my friend. Hang in there, and know that we all struggle mightily too, but we are all here supporting you! Be strong, be tough.

  2. Reblogged this on The healthiest beauty.

  3. I always worry when you mention ‘the black dog’. My husband also suffers from depression but he would never admit it. It’s difficult and I have to just walk away. There’s nothing I can say or do to make him feel better. Hope it passes soon.

  4. Thank you for sharing so openly. You never know who else you may be helping with your posts.
    I feel as if labeling the “black dog” is a good way of controlling “him”. I hope you keep him in his kennel. Stay strong!

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