Shakespeare wrote of a “Winter of Discontent” being turned in to a “Glorious Summer”. It is a great metaphor for misery turning to joy.
This winter has been miserable. I am waiting for the joy that will come with summer. I am waiting for the pleasure of spring.
Between head colds, which I have had aplenty, head concussion (mercifully, just one), snow, ice and bitter and persistent cold temperatures, I have been miserable and, probably, miserable to deal with.
My weight has climbed. My fitness has dropped. My attitude is horrible. I still feel awful from the most recent head cold. This is not at all fun.
I am trying to look forward and it is difficult. Every weather forecast calls for more cold, more ice, and more snow. The long-range forecasts do not show the expected warming trends of mid-March.
I am less than two months from the first big ride of the year. Less than three months from my planned Century ride.
I have ridden eight miles this year. Eight. Miles. This is not what I had planned.
This winter has been the hardest since I began the Journey. Illness, weather, depression, injury.
I am fighting it. The fog from the concussion has cleared. I am left with the weather, depression and illness. I will go to the Doctor today if he is available. Get some idea why this cold lingers.
Makes it impossible to ride even on the wind trainer. Depression is not something that lifts from outside influences so much as from internal. That is the harder fight for me. I have to avoid the spiral down. Depression feeds inactivity and weight gain which feeds the depression. Fighting it.
Misery. I hate winter.
Fight it with Plans
So here it is. I am making plans.
I still have the goal of 4000 miles on the bike this year. It will be difficult but not impossible and I am going to try like hell to make it happen.
I have the rides planned:
- Five-Boro Bike Tour
- Ride for Autism
- Hub on Wheels
- Discover Hartford
- Fall Foliage
- Turkey-Bike VI
I plan to lead the Sunday Morning Shop Rides. If the weather cooperates I think we will get them going again soon. The snow has melted off some…
I am back to the good eating plan that got me to my goal weight and I am confident that I will get back to 200 pounds. I am at 216 right now. I am not happy about it at all but being unhappy doesn’t change anything. Set the goal. Work the plan.
The issue is the effect this miserable winter has had on my mind and body. I am just so unhappy. I want to ride. I want to hike. I want to get outside and burn some energy and, in so doing, energize.
That’s it, isn’t it? Getting outside and burning the energy actually energizes me. It gets the mind active. It gets the body moving. I may be tired after a long hike or a long ride but my SOUL is energized. The soul. That THING within that give us our self. That which we truly are.
I am not the grumpy, depressed and frustrated person this winter has made me out to be,
I am energetic, I am aggressive. I am a writer, I am a cook, I am a jokester, a prankster, a hiker, a walker, a cyclist… I am ready to kick winter right in the ass.